Losing Insanity...

I'm so frustrated right about now. I have an unruly 3 yr old who thinks she is the boss around here. Today I fell asleep on the couch... I had turned on some cartoons and she was sitting on the couch watching them, when I drifted off. Next thing I know I wake up to Matt calling me for some reason or another and then look at Ash who was on the floor coloring. I didn't think anything of it other than how in the world did she get a hold of the crayons yet again. I thought I had put them up and away from her so she couldn't get a hold of them. She will use them to write on anything and everything you can. For example, I finally cleaned my carpets (shampooed them) because of all of the nice marker designs on them (thanks to a lack of parent watching on both parts) and that night I get home from work and there are MORE, ya you read me right MORE on my carpet! I was so pissed. Anyway so I made her give me the crayon box and that's when I noticed it...


There was a pair of scissors in the box and she CUT HER BANGS OFF!!!! I am frustrated beyond repair right now. We've been wanting to have another child but have been having to deal with her that we've waited and waited until hopefully she got "better". As of right now it feels like it's NEVER going to get better. What do you do now to make her look better? Guess it's a good thing we rarely go anywhere? This will give it time to grow out I guess? I just want to CRY big crocodile tears in disappointment in my child. NO amount of keeping her busy, playing with her, sitting with her, being with her stops her from being so freakin distructive!!!!!!!!! I'm at my wits end!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And to think... this morning I was thinking I didn't have anything to blog about. Guess I better be careful what I think... I might get another disaster like this one.

*bawl*..........................................